June 17, 2004
Dear beloved Father and Mother,
I hope and pray that my letter to you both will reach you in good health. True Parents and today's providence are always in my prayers I know you are both very busy, but I hope my concern in writing to you about the National Messiah Providence will not bother you too much.
Four and half year ago I wrote a letter to you through Dr. Peter Kim, and explained in general about the National Messiah Providence. I wrote about the unity problem we four types of National Messiahs' were facing that time.
I'm a Cain National Messiah and so far I've gone to my mission country six times for a substantial time. Before that I was a 21-year foreign missionary. In October of 1992, you called all foreign missionaries to Kodiak in Alaska for a fishing workshop, and at that time you asked all foreign missionaries to go to the CIS.
In December the same year I went to Russia and spent God's Day celebration in Moscow. Many foreign missionary went to Russia and we worked with Dr. Joon Ho Seuk.
It was a great time and at the same time, as well a time of suffering in terms of the very poor infrastructures in the whole CIS. I learned to love and serve the Russian people, who were once the enemy of God, because the Soviet leadership denied the existence of God.
I was in Russia with my wife and children; I worked there for four years. Purchasing food was often very difficult. There were times we couldn't even find milk for our baby etc.
In January of 1996 you called all foreign missionaries to New York for the God's Day celebration, and little later you awarded all 21-year foreign missionary with a plaque and a wristwatch. I was one of them. We also took an individual picture with you.
Thank you for the great blessing we could receive from Heaven and you. Still I thank our heavenly Father and you both for all your care, during these 21 years as foreign missionary.
While I was a missionary I faced serious illness and I faced situations of being shot by Soviet soldiers and anti-Soviet resistance fighters. Noting happened because I felt the love and care of heavenly Father and True Parents.
The National Messiah Providence started in 1996 in Chung Pyung with the first Korean National Messiah workshop. In June you called again all foreign missionary to attend Chung Pyung workshop for 40 days. My wife and I attended together.
We all repented a lot and sheet many tears during the workshop with Heung Jin Nim and Dae Mo Nim. At the end of the 40-days, I picked as a National Messiah.
I returned to Russia to prepare for the new mission. On the way my wife and 3 small children got hurt in a serious car accident. One passenger was immediately killed. The driver was serious injured and our youngest daughter was seriously injured too, and fell into a coma.
Doctors in the hospital told me she might not recover fully and might not survive at all. I saw my little daughter on life saving equipment. I felt so much pain that I might loose her. I had to cry. I know you did not cry when you beloved son Heung Jin Nim got killed in a car crash. But I did cry, True Father. I'm sorry!
I contacted Dae Mo Nim in Korea and explained what had happen. Three days later our daughter woke up. The doctors said this was a miracle that my daughter survived. Later on I found out Dae Mo Nim had sent good angels to help my daughter.
When I asked my daughter what she had experienced in her coma she said: "I saw strong lights all the time". I believe angels must have performed surgery on her internal organs. (As I write this I had to cry again.)
I heard that one National Messiah's son died and that another National Messiah's daughter died after they became National Messiahs.
Because of the accident, my family and I had to remain in my native country. As I came back from Russia, my family was in hospital; we had no home and no money. From 1996 till the end of June of 2001 I tried very hard to move to my country. My lack of success was due to financial reasons.
Eight years have passed since you initiated National Messiahship.
All Adam, Eve, Adam and Abel National Messiah started very enthusiastically despite great disharmony among all of us National Messiahs. I guess you must have heard many reports about our struggles. In April of 2000 you called all Korean National Messiah's back to Korea for Korea's unification process. Later on all Japanese National Messiah's were asked to move to Leda, Pantanal in South America. Since then only Abel and Cain National Messiahs are in their mission fields.
In the first 3 years many National Messiah's went to their assigned countries. But as time is passing, many of the Abel and Cain National Messiah's had to pack up again, and went home to their native countries for financial reasons. Many Korean and Japanese National Messiahs faced the same problem with money, and went back home.
I count that perhaps 35 to 40 nations National Messiah's families are present in their nations. I feel very sorry and sad about the low presence of National Messiahs. I appreciate all those who are in their mission country. I feel sorry while our passion for National Messiah ship had decreased these last years.
When I was foreign missionary we had the World Mission Department with its head Rev. Chung Hwan Kwak, who guided us foreign missionary all these years on. This helped a great deal, thanks to Rev Kwak and his staff in World Mission Department. I also see that the Peace Ambassador providence is well organized. Unfortunately, today we National Messiah's don't know where to go to get practical guidance to continue. I don't see any coordination at all in making this National Messiahs providence a success for Heaven and True Parents.
And this is the very reason why I'm writing today to you.
Dear True Parents, I hope you are not too upset about my letter of concern.
Lately, our National Messiahs discussion expresses our sincere concern about National Messiahs providence, whether or not there is one.
I think ALL National Messiah's will be grateful if you can speak out about this issue. Thank you!! It would really help all National Messiahs if you could give clarification on this important issue.
In June 2001, during the True Day of All Things celebration you scolded all National Messiahs at East Garden, asking why we hadn't met the head of states in our mission country, so that you could meet them today.
I feel very sad that there are many nations where there is no National Messiah anymore. I was wondering if you knew this, and if you get reports about the National Messiah's situations?
Dear beloved Father and Mother, please guide us so we can have hope again that perhaps one day we can make it to our assigned mission country, save her people, so that one day our Heavenly Father can become the King of Kings in each nation.
Very often my heart is crying out because I'm not back on the frontline.
When I joined the Unification Church, I immediately volunteered to become a foreign missionary. I had only been in the church for six months and was spiritually young. I'm still alive. I still want to do something great for Heaven and you – True Parents.
To conclude my letter to you: I love you very much and I want to help you to bring this world back to our Heavenly Father.
I hope I did not bother you too much with my deep concern I still have for the National Messiah Providence.
We know that we National Messiahs aren't yet National Messiahs in the truest sense, but we are on the way to become one. This is our promise to you!
Thank you very much for listening!