Surviving Loneliness

Hyo Jin Moon
December 9, 2007 7:00 am
Belvedere

Here are my notes from Hyo-Jin-nim's speech Sunday 09 December 2007. My ability to convey what was actually said is limited. These, at most, convey some sense of what Hyo-Jin-nim said and are not a verbatim record. To see projects that Hyo-Jin-nim is working on log on to: definingmoment.tv/
Joe Kinney

Rev. Andrew Compton is the MC. All welcome Hyo-Jin-nim and Yeon Ah-nim and offer a standing bow.

(Hyo-Jin-nim bows to the audience as he approaches the stage.)

Good morning. (Good morning)

The topic is "Surviving Loneliness."

We all feel lonely sometimes. Right? (Yes)

Most of the time. (Laughter)

Why do you feel lonely?

People have an expectation to us; we have an expectation to ourselves.

It's not other people's expectation; it's my expectation, when we fall short, we feel lonely.

So what do you do with that?

I know that you don't want to be lonely, so what do you do with that?

What do you do when you feel that?

Cut to the chase. Okay? (Means: "Let's get straight to the point.") Your existence is a miracle.

Your life is a miracle.

Your physical existence, your intellectual existence, your spiritual existence is a miracle.

So many things that can happen, it's up to you. Just in itself, your existence is a miracle.

So when you just fall into that kind of loneliness period basically you're disregarding your existence reality, which is a miracle.

You should not expect a greater miracle beyond what you've got.

Why? Because life is too short, and in this short life all you're doing is learning something about YOU! NOTHING ELSE!

And you try to prove that I have learned some thing about me that is right, that is good. That's all you're trying to prove, nothing else. There's nothing beyond that.

And how we come to understand this kind of understanding, yes, that's the religious struggle. But in the end that's the conclusion. That's all we're trying to achieve in our lives, in the end, nothing more.

Do I fear loneliness? (Laughs) We all have our stories, but that's not important. If we have learned that lesson in our lives just to understand that essence, that basic principle, that's all it means.

You're not that lonely. You understand something. And when you understand something, you're part of something. And what you're part of. huh? Who knows, huh? But that's what's important, nothing else.

Anyway, try. And as we try even people like me can get attached to people like you. (Much laughter)

So, are you lonely? You figure that out.

So, hey! Everybody is lonely. Okay?

Everybody is lonely. But we'll find somebody to make us feel a little different, and that's where you start.

Okay?

Gratitude

Hyo Jin Moon
December 2, 2007 7:00 am
Belvedere

Here are my notes from Hyo-Jin-nim's speech Sunday 02 December 2007. My ability to convey what was actually said is limited. These, at most, convey some sense of what Hyo-Jin-nim said and are not a verbatim record. To see projects that Hyo-Jin-nim is working on log on to: definingmoment.tv/
Joe Kinney

Rev. Andrew Compton is the MC. All welcome Hyo-Jin-nim and Yeon Ah-nim and offer a standing bow.

(Hyo-Jin-nim bows to the audience as he approaches the stage.)

Good morning. (Good morning)

Crazy day huh? (It had started snowing heavily) (Laughter)

The topic is gratitude.

Crazy day.

What are you grateful for?

Until you are a little teenager you have no concept of gratitude. Because if you have just left the nipple I don't think you have a concept of gratitude.

It's when you start to struggle to find yourself that you understand the concept of gratitude.

And you ask yourself "What are you struggling for?"

I mean you can be fortunate enough to come into a concept where you can be the richest man on earth. How do you start to feel that gratitude? Let's say you're going to inherit, because your parents are so rich, billions of dollars. How are you going to feel gratitude?

Let's say that you came up with some kind of scheme and it's making lots of money, and you feel rich. Why? Because people are buying into your scheme. So how do you feel gratitude?

Think about even the simple scenario, how does one feel gratitude? Do they actually feel gratified in something? If and why? Think about it. How would they feel those things? What's the trick, what's the thing that will make those people, if you're in that situation, make them feel gratified?

Basic things we need to question and answer for ourselves. We have to do that, and it has to be clear, because no one else is going to live your life. Some things are basic and those things YOU MUST KNOW THE ANSWER. (Emphasizing each word with a tap on the podium)

(From this point Hyo-Jin-nim's voice was filled with emotion and tears ran down his cheeks.)

Only then can you understand what gratitude is. Because you live, YOU live. You don't live by someone else's name. You don't live because of someone else's existence.

You live. because you live, and that's important, and that's what you should be grateful for. That's where it starts. You can't be somebody else.

What am I grateful for? You tell me. If you want to build an Ideal world, then understand that first. (taps podium several times) and from that, you move. You build and that's a step. It's a long process, but that's what you have to accept, because finding yourself is a difficult process, something you can be grateful for. You feel that? Keep on looking.

Someone does somewhere. Everybody has that stuff. You know what I'm saying? What am I grateful for? What is that stuff? What is that? What is my best? I know you have it.

God is fair and God is good. He gave you goodness. What is that stuff? That's your duty to yourself. Because if you don't understand that there's no possibility so what's the point of trying. You're going to fail anyway.

So unless you -- unless you understand the basics and give yourself the opportunity to succeed. You HAVE TO KNOW WHAT YOU'RE GRATEFUL FOR in life, while you're breathing. OK?

If somebody asks you that question, you'd better know how to answer that stuff. Otherwise, don't believe in God. Do that first.

You don't live that long you guys! I'm telling you!

So you need to be grateful for what you are.

You want something more? Why? Why do you want something more when you can feel gratitude?

Because you want to be like that guy, or that guy, or that guy, or that guy, that guy, that guy? (Each time pointing in a different direction with either of his hands like pretending to shoot two pistols.) You're an out-law huh? A gunslinger huh?

Don't be stupid. That's what you're doing, basically, if you do that. You're gun-slinging. You want to be an outlaw.

Why? What's the point? Do you want to go to jail in the end? Do you want to kill yourself because you can never reach that goal?

People do plastic surgery. There's a lot of TV shows about that, (laughing) it's crazy stuff! And it's popular to some people. WHY? ...

There's actually a show, "Beauty to the Beast" or something like that. They literally just cosmetically transform people. They rate who's better looking in the end! It's crazy stuff! That's the ideal world, huh? Well that's the ideal world, I guess, in America.

You can do that, but is that how you're going to make everything ideal? That's the definition of crazy stuff. That's what makes little young girls sick. Right? (Yes)

And you watch that stuff, and why do you watch it? Because everybody wants to be like that? The cool kids. What the hell is cool anyway?

I used to chase that stuff too, when I was little, but you get old and that stuff doesn't mean anything to you anymore. Why? What do you think of? You try to live for the sake of others. Right?

That's what's good. Right?

That's why.

And it is difficult.

Trust me; I know how to take care of myself. I know how to service me good. But as you get older, that's not important.

You know you're dying and the basic questions are more important than what you see.

And you will die. (Whispering)

So be grateful for what you have and the life that you live.

Independence

Hyo Jin Moon
November 25, 2007
Belvedere, 7:00 am

Here are my notes from Hyo-Jin-nim's speech Sunday 25 November 2007. My ability to convey what was actually said is limited. These, at most, convey some sense of what Hyo-Jin-nim said and are not a verbatim record. To see projects that Hyo-Jin-nim is working on log on to: definingmoment.tv
Joe Kinney

Rev. Jack Corley is the MC. All welcome Hyo-Jin-nim and Yeon Ah-nim and offer a standing bow.

Hyo-Jin-nim bows to the audience as he approaches the stage.

Good morning. (Good morning)

America is the most proud nation on earth, right?

They're proud of their strength and they believe it came from independence.

How does one feel independent? What is independence? I mean, you can't really separate yourself from anything permanently. You are always attached to something; otherwise you have to live like a hermit.

Living in a society or being civil, you're connected to something, always, absolutely. So how are you independent? What is the nature of independence? And why is that important to you? And why is that important to everybody?

Because that's what you wave as a flag to the rest of the world.

How do you teach yourself? How do you get taught?

The first step is that you have to accept something. That's the first step. If you don't accept, you don't get taught. No matter what other people try to drill into your head, if you don't want to accept it... They can torture you; they can imprison you; you will not accept it. If you don't accept it, you will never be taught.

So if you can't accept something that comes from somewhere else, you'll never be taught. So as part of that process, what is important is acceptance. That's the first step.

And the next step is belief. You have to believe what you have accepted. And you have to be willing to act upon it, and to practice it, to try to live by it.

And the next step is faith. You have to be willing to die by it.

Otherwise it doesn't mean... you haven't learned anything.

What is the point of being independent when you have nothing that you can represent yourself with?

Anyway, there are many things that we can do in terms of choice making. But think about where that choice making stuff comes from. Think about the process of you making that choice. Think about what triggers what.

"Am I making a choice in a nasty situation or a good situation?" Think about the process. Think about YOU, where you stand. Okay?

If there's a conflict: "Where's the conflict in my acceptance? Where's the conflict in my belief? Where's the conflict in my faith?" You have to know how to determine that, in times of trouble, especially. Because if you don't, guess what? In the end you're at fault.

You will live with the consequences, nobody else. It doesn't matter how many fingers you can point to other people, you will face the consequences.

It doesn't matter how many people you can dupe because you are slick, but you will face the consequences. Ultimately you will face the judgment.

You will die.

This is a short life. Okay?

Thank God there are not too many old people here! (Laughter)

If you get old, you feel you're going to that stuff. And it is true, whether you like it or not, you have to think about that every day, every day. For what ever reason that you think your life is short, you have to think about life being short everyday and accept that as real.

So what are you going to do with your independence? You have to answer that question. Because it's you, you want to be independent. You have a name.

If I look in a phone book in Korea, I'm sure that there's Moon Hyo-Jin somewhere, but most likely it's going to be a girl. There are a lot of girls named Hyo-Jin. (Laughing)

So it's going to be you. When you practice anything, all your doing is you're trying to re-enforce your belief. That's about it. You're teaching yourself in belief. That's why you practice, Right? In any technical stuff or what ever, otherwise why do you practice?

That's what you're doing. When you accept something, there's a stage of growth. Okay? And when you practice something, that's all you're doing; you're just teaching yourself your belief, reinforcing your belief.

So it gets stronger and you feel: "Okay, Okay, let's go; I'll compete! I'll be number one!"

What are you going to do when you're number one?

What is your faith? What are you dying for?

Your life's short! It had better mean something!

Having faith is something that I feel that, I AM SOMETHING, something that is eternal, something that is greater than "I," I want to be there. I MAKE MY STEPS TO THAT! (Emphasizing each word tapping the podium). And I earned it.

There's lot's to change. Okay? It's a different story.

There are practical problems that we need to address. But we have to have the right attitude, you know?

You want to be independent; the key to victory is in your hand; hold on to it.

Believe in it.

Okay.

Having Faith to Fate

Hyo Jin Moon
November 18, 2007
Belvedere, 7:00 am

Here are my notes from Hyo-Jin-nim's speech Sunday 18 November 2007. My ability to convey what was actually said is limited. These, at most, convey some sense of what Hyo-Jin-nim said and are not a verbatim record. To see projects that Hyo-Jin-nim is working on log on to: definingmoment.tv
Joe Kinney

Rev. Andrew Compton is the MC. All welcome Hyo-Jin-nim and Yeon Ah-nim and offer a standing bow.

Hyo-Jin-nim bows to the audience as he approaches the stage.

Good morning. (Good morning)

Today's topic is having faith to fate.

Do you believe in fate?

According to the dictionary, I guess, it means a prophetic declaration, or something like that.

Do you have some kind of inspired thing about yourself that you're willing to die for?

Do you have it? (No answer)

Then you have no fate, because that's the definition; that's the standard.

We try to understand who we are. We try to understand our limitations because that's important; that's when we can grow.

Truly knowing your limitations makes the expansion that you're willing to make, make sense in the end; make something in the end; make something substantial in the end.

Otherwise it's just foolish nonsense; it's just a dream.

A lot of people end up in jail because they had foolish dreams. I see many people in jail because they really never clearly understood who they were, their limitations. That's why they ended up in jail.

And all sorts of crazy and nonsensical sense of themselves that they can never measure up to, but they kept on pushing it for what ever reason. It can be peer pressure. It can be out of lust or greed or something.

Things like that are always out there, and that's why they keep on pushing themselves to that nonsensical self of themselves. They crash and burn. And you can't blame anybody else when you do that.

So you have to think about your fate; you have to believe in your fate, because you have it. You're children of God. You have something to offer to the table, and bring it all to the pool beyond race and nationality.

Fate; think about your fate. What is your DESTINY?

What is your prophetic declaration? (Laughing)

It starts from understanding your limit, expanding it, one step at a time.

And you should be checking whether it works or not, for you. You know what I'm saying?

You should be monitoring that stuff because when you say that you're an adult, pretty much that is your responsibility. Right? There's not somebody over you always looking over your shoulder tapping you on the shoulder and saying "No, no, no that's not right; do it this way." You're not going to have that all the time.

That's the problem. That's why take it easy, even if you want to rush forward, pull yourself back. Know your limit first.

Knowing your limit is: knowing whether you can be effective or not in pursuit of something that you want to achieve, that you can actually accomplish, because without it, it doesn't mean anything in the end.

If you set out yourself to build something and you build nothing, and you say "Hey do you see what I see?" No, I don't see it because there's nothing there. (Laughs)

You know the story of the Emperor Has No Clothes, that kind of stuff. There are all sorts of fables like that.

Unfortunately, if it's going to be true, it's not just me that's going to see it; it has to be you too. (Laughs) That's why it's a pain in the butt.

So having faith... that's another factor.

I try to have faith in my family. Sometimes it's difficult. It's very difficult. Oh the ride is hard. But you believe. You try to believe that, in the end, some good is going to come out of this, in its own way, in its own way, because they're all unique.

And I must have faith, because it should mean something to make a difference in the world and if I'm trying to do the same...

So what is my fate then? Ideal family...

And what is that? That's where all of you belong, everybody belongs.

That's what ideal family is.

And when my children get older and they get married I like to see all sorts of people come into my family, so that I can call them my son or my daughter…

Have faith. Have faith in yourself, and know your fate, your good. You will bring something to all.

Believe that, and bring it.

And that will define us in the end.

You want to compete and win?

So be it.

Let that be the bench mark.

Okay.

(taps podium once)

Take care of yourself.

Conditions

Hyo Jin Moon
November 4, 2007
Belvedere, 7:00 am

Here are my notes from Hyo-Jin-nim's speech Sunday 04 November 2007. My ability to convey what was actually said is limited. These, at most, convey some sense of what Hyo-Jin-nim said and are not a verbatim record. To see projects that Hyo-Jin-nim is working on log on to: definingmoment.tv
Joe Kinney

Rev. Andrew Compton is the MC. All welcome Hyo-Jin-nim and Yeon Ah-nim and offer a standing bow.

Hyo-Jin-nim bows to the audience as he approaches the stage.

Good morning. (Good morning)

All of us at anytime are on some kind of condition. Right?

I want to go on a diet; I'm going to loose a hundred pounds, whatever. (Laughing)

I'm going to do this; I'm going to do that. Try to make a condition, because a condition represents something that you want to change that will come in the future, something that will change.

And how do you go about achieving that condition? What normally has to happen? Obviously you have to have a goal. Right? You have to know what you're aiming for. You have to have direction. So based on that, you make a condition, and obviously what follows that is commitment, and ultimately into action.

So how do you change the Spirit World? You need to improve your grades so you go on a condition and you make a commitment to study a little longer. If you study maybe one hour per week, (Laughing) you jack it up to maybe one hundred hours or something, so you can improve your grades.

Well that can physically happen, but how do you change something that is beyond you? How do you go about changing something based on a condition that YOU can make, and make a difference?

What do you call that big lotto stuff with millions, hundreds of millions of dollars? Let's say that there is a lottery jackpot of three-hundred-million dollars, and you're going to pray, you're going to make that condition; you'll pray every day to God so you can win that lottery. (Laughing) Do you thing that's a good condition?

Conditions only have to be about something centered on love, and if it's that, it is not for you; it is for somebody else.

Through my wife I heard about a person that was struggling because she joined the church, but her little sisters didn't. And she was struggling because her little teenage sisters were doing stuff that she's concerned about. And I told her "Hey, you go down that path when you're at that age and there's nothing you can do to stop them from doing what they're doing except locking them up. If locking them up is unrealistic then obviously you have no control. I know that you feel powerless, but you want to do something."

And I saw her trying to make some kind of condition. I saw her praying in the wee hours of the morning, praying for something. Something like that might have some kind of effect rather than just praying for yourself to be better, because, to God, love is first before self. Right? Yes.

In setting conditions, that's what you have to think about. "What kind of condition am I making; why do I need this condition; what am I looking for; what do I expect?" I know that you expect something any time you make some kind of condition. You go pray at the Holy Rock "I'm going to make a condition and I'm going to pray for 120 days; I want the world to change." Do you think the world will change just because you want it?

That's overly inflated in your head. You've got to know your limits. You have to know that.

Don't be that Godly all of a sudden and expect stuff to change just because "I made a condition." That's nonsense!

If that happens, let's all go to Sin City, Las Vegas, and pray for God to allow all the gamblers to win and to make Sin City into Bankrupt City. Then that city would change because they'd have no more money. You can't pray for things like that.

Wouldn't it be nice if some aliens, we all like alien stuff, would land on the Whitehouse lawn and say "Hey, listen to me Bush, otherwise I'm going to make you into a burning Bush!" (Laughter) Or the UFO would land on a Mosque or in the Kremlin or whatever and say "Hey! I'm going to put Putin in the pudding. Let's put that Putin into the galactic oven and make him into a nice pudding, and eat him." I'm sure the world would change. Well that kind of magic is not going to happen.

So in conditions you have to ask your self "Why do we make conditions?" Because we want to connect to the heart of something; that's about it; we want to make that connection to something. That's why we make conditions.

It can be to money; it can be to intellect; it can be to spirit, but ultimately in the end, what ever is highest, is highest. That's the bottom line and that's what you want to connect to. That's why you make conditions, because you want to be something; you want to be somebody, and if you want to learn about anything, you have to make conditions. "I'm going to learn this stuff; and until I learn it I'm not going to quit!" You make that commitment and you put it into action and until it's done, you don't quit! You make that condition work for you.

And what are you connecting to? You answer that, no one else. Ultimately I know that it has to be about controlling the body, the mind and the spirit. That's how you grow. And whatever connection that you're making, that's your problem. However old you are, whatever, that sets your level. Accept that. Except note that YOU'RE TRYING TO MAKE THAT PROGRESS in body mind and spirit.

And you want to make that connection because you want to know; you want to be better; you want to grow. And only YOU know when the condition is done. Only you know no one else. Because only then you will move on to the next level, and you will feel good about moving on to it, to the next level, because it's a NATURAL process; it's a natural process.

You complete something, you go to the next, for your betterment. Your betterment, only you know. Your perfection, only you know. What ever it is, it doesn't matter, only you know.

Try; try to listen to your (inner voice?) because arrogance will kill you. If you want something of love, how can you be arrogant?

Okay, I know you make conditions every day, but make sure it's from your heart, it's of love, otherwise, don't even call it a condition.

Okay, (Taps Podium twice)

See you later.

Hope

Hyo Jin Moon
October 28, 2007
Belvedere, 7:00 am

Here are my notes from Hyo-Jin-nim's speech Sunday 28 October 2007. My ability to convey what was actually said is limited. These, at most, convey some sense of what Hyo-Jin-nim said and are not a verbatim record. To see projects that Hyo-Jin-nim is working on log on to: definingmoment.tv
Joe Kinney

Rev. Andrew Compton is the MC. All welcome Hyo-Jin-nim and offer a standing bow.

Hyo-Jin-nim bows to the audience as he approaches the stage.

Good morning (Good morning)

Is everything okay with you? (Yes)

Hey, long time no see; good to see you. (Addressing one brother)

Do you have hope? (Yes)

Hope in you? (Laughs) Hope in humanity? Hope in the future?

I guess hope means something that's going to be better. Right? For all of us; right, all of us; not just me. Because hope has a greater range than just self awareness or self existence. Okay so..

There are a lot of doomsday sayers you know, apocalyptic stuff that they propound on to a religious community based on revelations and stuff. It's based on a dream-state kind of babbling.

Because what you see is what you get. That's what you see.

When we can see it, we can change it. That's the nature of mankind. That separates us from any other creations in creation. If we can recognize something, in absolute, we can change it because we have that control.

That is the greatest blessing. We have that control of that absolute as if we are a Divine creator. So when it's absolutely, undeniably obvious and in-your-face, everybody wants to be good; not everybody wants to be bad.

"Original Mind". Put those principle words aside. People want to be good in the end. How can you deny yourself the change, the opportunity, the better, that you can have when you know that this kind of stuff is in your face?

Of course you can see the horrible atrocities that people can commit to each other in a maximum range. In terms of degree, it's maximum. You can't go beyond this; you can't do more evil. Men can't do more evil to each other. And it's apparent, and you see it every day on television and stuff, internet or whatever. Thank God for the multimedia. Right?

Once we can recognize our wrong, that's when we can truly change. You have to truly understand your wrong to truly change.

So why do you have hope? I see hope in my youngest kid. He's a bug, you know, because he's little and just slithers around on his belly all over the place. It's a bug. To me it's a bug. It's not human yet. (Laughter) And the little bug will turn into a monkey and start to somehow turn into a human someday. (Laughter)

Well he is a little bug and so independent; if I drop dead tomorrow, he's going to make it. So that's hope for me. That's not to say that I plan on dying tomorrow. I want to see that little kid grow up and see him make little bambinos and. I want to see it. You never know. That is what I wish. You take it as it comes. But that's a hope for me.

And you go to a third-world country and just a little thing that you give to a poor child and you see that face light up. That's a hope right there. You can do a ton of that stuff.

Many times it's that subjectivity, that we all have, that clouds us about the visions of tomorrow. Why do you want to take something that is so cloudy and dark when you can also choose the opposite? You make that choice. That's the problem. You're subjective.

Individual responsibility means that you have to make decisions sometimes and that sometimes, the decisions that you make, can screw you up. Why? Because it starts something; it starts the wrong cycle of stupid thinking. And who are you going to fault for what you have done? You can't fault anyone other than yourself in the end.

So even when you come to objectivity, you can't always just be objective. You have to have some kind of center and finding that stuff is difficult. How do you balance your subjectivity and your objectivity in balance and have that center. Because you know it's that stuff. You will feel up; you will feel subjective; you will feel objective. You will naturally have that kind of rhythm.

But how do you balance that stuff? Sometimes you force it; sure. But beyond that point, without you knowing, you have that natural rhythm, but how do you balance it? So that's why you have to find that center.

I don't know what your limitations are. I don't because everybody has limitations. Your limit, you have to know. You have to figure it out other wise you're not going to be anything because you're trying to get something beyond what you can provide for yourself.

That's why understanding your basic limitations, yourself, is much more important than anything else before you do anything else. How can you help somebody when you're..

Even trying to better yourself, you have to know your limit so you can choose the proper stuff for yourself. Right? You don't want top be a rock star do you? (Laughing) Maybe some people do some people have that kind of. But not every body can be that stuff. Choose your stuff.

In order to choose that stuff, you have to know your limit. Just because it looks good, sounds good, that does not mean it is for you. See your limit, you're responsible for it. Knowing your limit, you're responsible for it. That's individual responsibility. From there, you start. From there you nurture yourself to grow. You mature and ultimately you grow into perfection, and become something that is you. And we need a lot of stuff like that to make a great, greater society.

When you look at America, this is the greatest nation. But basically people want stability, security, and continuity. And you think America is an ideal world? You think it can provide that, the basic stuff the citizens demand forever? I don't think so. It will change. It has to change. Obviously it's not perfect, to say the least. Okay? It will change. It has to change.

But that's what basically people want in civilization. And you want to create an ideal civilization. So how do you go about achieving that? You have to look at yourself individually. And you have to know your limitations. You know what I'm saying. You have to know your limitations first before you start demanding stuff from others. That's the most important thing.

When we can do that, when we can control ourselves to that degree, yes, there's hope in humanity. If I can start to do that, starting from me, there's a hope in me. But is that can be synchronized, then there's a hope for whatever that is greater. Okay?

Hope. YOU BUILD IT! The fate is in our hands, our fate. You build it, nobody else. Don't pray to God; you build it. God is showing you the way; you build it, and don't blame anyone else. Okay?

Hey! We have hope! We can do it! Just take it easy. Be patient. Take it step-by-step. You don't need to hurry. You aren't going anywhere. We're trapped on this little marble until it changes for the better.

Don't get ahead of yourself. Pace your self; look at others. Okay? Because we all have to do that to change the world, not just me. Okay. So pace yourself.

Yeah I'm sharing my personal kind of stuff, learning and whatever, personal realization, observation. But God through my Parents gave birth to me so you don't credit for whatever. If I did something to you, you don't want to do that.

Some things you just want to walk away. You have to know how to do that stuff. It's not yours. Don't be selfish. Because it's so easy to be selfish isn't it? You aren't going to make it to the top taking the easy way out. Right?

So, take care of your self.

I'll see you next week. (Thank you Hyo-Jin-nim)

Communication

Hyo Jin Moon
October 21, 2007
Belvedere 7:00 am

Here are my notes from Hyo-Jin-nim's speech Sunday 21 October 2007. My ability to convey what was actually said is limited. These, at most, convey some sense of what Hyo-Jin-nim said and are not a verbatim record. Hyo-Jin-nim's website is: www.canaanstation.com To see two of the projects that Hyo-Jin-nim is working on log on to: definingmoment.tv and definingmoment.eu
Joe Kinney

Rev. Andrew Compton is the MC. All welcome Hyo-Jin-nim and Yeon-Ah-nim and offer a standing bow.

Hyo-Jin-nim bows to the audience as he approaches the stage.

Today's topic is Communication.

I need a haircut. Right? It looks like I'm wearing a helmet.

Did your parents read you stories when you were young to put you asleep?

Did you have that experience? If you did, was that important to you?

What if the opposite happens? (Pointing toward a brother) Hey man, do what you got to do. Make the best with you got; do what's right.

And I'm known for making short statements (Laughing) but some times when you're a little kid, when your daddy or your mommy reads you a story, that's important to you. Why? That is nurturing; that's the way we grow in body mind and spirit.

What you are saying might not mean anything, might not be significant, but just the action in itself, that adds the value that can guide you into the direction that ultimately any parent would want the child to go.

You know, you kind of have to look at communication in a spherical way. What I mean is that you have a forward and backwards; you have to have some kind of historical background and tradition and think about putting emphasis on that, and future thinking, outward thinking, and balancing the left and right, whatever. On a reality level, for lack of a better term, liberalism and conservatism; and up and down, God and selfishness.

You have to build from there, and hopefully, as you try, the sphere gets bigger, as you blow more air into the balloon, so to speak. Love is elastic so it's like the balloon that doesn't pop. Although it has boundaries, it will expand and it shouldn't pop. It won't pop, theoretically.

The most difficult thing for me is being humble. I jokingly always say "A humble man is nobody other than a person who knows how to keep his arrogance to himself." It's very difficult.

The things that make vertical work are things that are basic: humility, self-sacrifice, unselfishness, love, forgiveness, compassion, all those goody-goody-two-shoes stuff. But those things are very difficult to achieve unless you can control the forwards and backwards, left and right and balance.

You know there's a fine line in everything. Right? In extremes. What about righteousness? The opposite is self-righteousness. What is the fine line that divides it? When you destroy. Destroy is a very strong word; I'm going to use it anyway. The union of the blood, that's self righteousness.

Loyalty is important too. Sometimes, even if you can't deal with yourself in the moment, at least you have the sense to walk away, right? I'm a good fighter, and I see some jackass, and he's provoking a fight. I can kick his butt, or I can walk away. Now that's difficult. Walking away is difficult. Humility is difficult.

I know that I can be very arrogant. I know that I can be very self-serving. If you do that long enough, you get greedy. I've seen that happen many times. But that's reality. That's what we face everyday.

You see people; good people go down because of that kind of stuff. Because they allow themselves to let something, something get the best of them. And what is that something? That's what we need to communicate about to each other.

You can't live alone. Right? No matter how smart you are. God doesn't want to be alone. Right? So let's just end it there. You don't want to be alone.

So you need to communicate. That's why we form a group; that's why family is important. That's the building block of a greater society. Right? Tribe, society, nation, world, right?

So if we want to establish an ideal kingdom of God on earth, basic sense has to be met. And you have to know what the hell, what the basic is and communicate, give and take. Look, love and forgiveness, that's the opposite isn't it? That's give and take isn't it?

Why? Because when you forgive somebody, you will receive greater love. You will take greater love. Take sounds strong, but basically that's what it is. That's why we forgive; because we will take greater love because we will receive it from something greater than ourselves, or even from each other, even from peers, even from your friends.

Just because you know how to do that they might think of you a little more differently, even in a group they'll think that you're a little more special than every body that he knows. Now that's something, isn't it? That's called growth, and that's what matters. Nothing else matters more than that.

Ultimately you want to communicate with God. How many people talk to God regularly? Please don't raise your hand (Laughter) because I'm going to chop it off. (Much laughter)

At least, be in control of yourself. And give the best you got to the ones that you love, the ones that you care about. Start from there. Think about the future; think about the past; think about the left and right; think about God and your selfishness, and give. If you've got something to say, say it. Share it.

And make that little ball grow; and make sure it's true.

From this point until the end Hyo-Jin-nim is in tears.

Let God judge, OK? Let Him do the judging. You don't want to get in to that mess.

Do what's right. Do the best you can. Do that first, and don't even think about anything else.

Let God do the judging. You will die!

So, speak the truth from your…

Because when you do that, you'll die for it.

Because the heart lives on. Right? Spirit lives on. You die.

Your arrogant ass will die.

And let's all be judged by God. OK?

It's all equal there. You can forgive somebody, but still there's a judgment for that person. You know what I'm saying?

So I did my best; I tried to learn what is right.

So, I'm all yours. Do what you want. Isn't that what it is? Isn't that the Christian belief?

Isn't that the essence of religion?

YOU FEAR GOD! RIGHT?

But no man. Right?

OK, I'll see you next week.

Time

Hyo Jin Moon
October 14, 2007
Belvedere 7:00 am

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Rev. Andrew Compton is the MC. All welcome Hyo-Jin-nim and Yeon-Ah-nim and offer a standing bow.

Hyo-Jin-nim bows to the audience as he approaches the stage.

Good morning (Good morning)

On my last trip to Korea I went and met somebody; met somebody that I really didn't like.

I have my reasons, but I am not going to get into it for you, but I really did not like this guy.

He is, in every sense of the word, being snake-ish; that's about it.

But he is struggling with malignant cancer, so I went to see him. And I told him "Hey just drop it all" and he was repenting and was trying to say a lot of stuff. I told him "You don't need to say anything. Let's just end it here; forget it and move on, and I will do my best to find more of courage in me to forgive you"

When you think about time, how long do you think you're going to live? 100 years? Are you going to live 100 years 120, 200? (Laughter)

We all know that most people spend two-thirds of their life doing something other that work. Right? Most people sleep seven or eight hours a day. Right? (Snaps fingers) one third gone. (Laughter) You go from point "A" to point "B" and that kind of stuff, waiting, hygiene, eating, gossip, whatever, taking care of business, whatever, studying (Snaps fingers) gone!

Even if you live 100 years you've got about 30 years to work to try to do something.

What are you going to do? Why is the concept of time so relevant to us? It is literally held to our head like a loaded gun. And we're supposed to learn about eternity. Right? Love, eternal love.

How do you take something that has no time constraint and put it into the frame of time? That is the greatest paradox, isn't it?

So when you think about love, what do you think about? What do you want: something that lasts forever? What is that basic stuff?

To me time is about studying. It's about going to a class. Ok, whatever 101 will start at 9:30 and it will end at 10:30. It's that stuff.

Time is about learning something; it's about study. That's about it. And what are you studying?

As I grew older that's what I felt. The moment that I said "Let's forget about this" when I met that guy, I realized "Why the hell did I hold all this hatred if this was inevitable?"

Without the concept of time I would not feel what I felt, the learning that I felt in my heart. It wouldn't be something to me; it would just be a concept that would go in one ear and come out the other ear.

I felt it. Some things God wants you to feel; that's why you have time. Because it's important to feel something; and that feeling should last forever. Why, because that's the basis of what you are, what we are, what God is. And from that we can grow forever.

Nobody wants to study forever! I want to enjoy myself for a million years. OK, I go to school for the next thousand years, OK? I have two million years over. I promise. (Laughter)

We all have somebody to connect to. And you find that somebody to love you should pay attention to those moments.

There are some things that, in the end, will be inevitable whether you like it or not, that you must learn. I know that you don't have time, but take time; take it easy. Some things are inevitable; don't rush.

We have to learn. We're learning. Life is about learning. Short. Thank God! He just wants us to learn about the basics. The basics, if you can give, if you can take, if you can love, if you can forgive. Basic things, there are things that are inevitable whether you like it or not, you will learn before you die. And if you do, you are the fortunate one.

OK? Time, yes it seems long sometimes, especially when you're miserable. And of course in the opposite case it's too short.

Life in it self is too short, OK, and it's about learning the basics. You've got plenty of time, cause that's what I believe. Life is way too short for me here.

A lot of stuff is happening, but who cares? I'm going to leave it behind. That's about it.

No matter how much you build, no matter how much you do, take that time; make that moment count when you feel something.

I know some guys here wanted to be missionaries for the rest of their lives. You know that's beautiful. Giving is better than taking. We all know that. We'll try.

And I will be graded, just like you.

OK,

Take care.