Ronnie Fuhrimann, “The Day My Feet Left the Ground”

I was never a good fundraiser. Many times I had days were I only made 2 or 3 dollars. This particular day started out like one of those.

We were fundraising with peanut brittle, house to house somewhere in New Jersey. The team captain would often put me together with one Austrian brother, perhaps because we were so opposite in character. He was very straight and serious. Normally, we got along fine, but I was having one of those $2 days, so I was getting on his nerves. He would be all the way around the block before I had even finished four or five houses, and he would ask what was taking me so long.

By the evening run, I had had enough. After being dropped off, I leaned against the picket fence of a pretty little house for a long time. I just couldn’t go on anymore. I hadn’t made any money, and a lot of people had been negative. I had stopped to pray, but nothing changed. I didn’t have the energy to go one more step. So I leaned against the picket fence and prayed one more time. I decided to fundraise at the pretty little house, but was going to quit right after.

A father and son answered the door at that house. They were so cheerful and friendly and they bought 2 for $5, thus doubling what I had made so far that day. I felt sufficiently uplifted to go on to the next house. From then on, I felt like I was floating from house to house. Nearly everyone was home and nearly everyone bought. My steps became so light, and movement was so effortless. I was enjoying the sensation, but never assumed it was more than that. I was still fundraising with the same brother. It wasn’t until he kept asking me how it was that I was getting around the blocks so fast that I realized what an incredible spiritual experience I was having.

From 40 Years in America, p. 247.

Kurt P. Frey, “We lived with the very palpable sense that we were being guided and protected each day”

My most poignant experiences in the Unification Church occurred during several years of fundraising in Texas during the 1980s. The mobile fundraising teams I was on spent many months in the southern towns of Texas -- from San Padre Island in eastern Texas to El Paso in western Texas, and as far down in the "Valley" as Harlingen near the Mexican border.

We typically fundraised from mid-morning to late in the evening, six or seven days a week, traveling nomadically from town to town, sleeping in campgrounds or cheap motels. Our external purpose was to raise as much money as possible to support church activities in Texas and across America, mostly by selling "monchichis" (small, furry stuffed animals that, when pinched on the back, would open their arms and cling to whatever they were attached, such as a car mirror). Our internal purpose was to purify our hearts and grow spiritually, to develop our love and unite with God and True Parents.

The climate of Texas, the Mexican-Texan people we encountered, and the ease with which we sold our "product" made for many beautiful, heartfelt, victorious experiences. After a short sermon by our team "captain," or one of the team members, we would eat a breakfast out of a cooler in our van or stop for eggs, refried beans, and flour tortillas at a diner on our way to our first "drop off."

Often, we would each be dropped off in a different small town for the day (there were usually five or six of us on a team). Once in a town, I would pray before venturing into neighborhoods or commercial areas. I would often jog from house to house or shop to shop, praying to myself or chanting ("...build God’s kingdom on earth, build God’s kingdom in the spirit world..." for example), hoping to mobilize the spirit world to assist my efforts. I would often experience some type of persecution or period of poor results (requiring me to have faith) before I would finally "break through" and start to "crush out." I would sometimes trade one or two monchichis for lunch, and then find an inconspicuous place to take a short nap (I was often physically exhausted from our long days). A recurring fear I had was being picked up and interrogated by local police. Who was I, who was I working with, and what was I doing in say, Fort Smith, Texas.

Good experiences occurred upon being invited into a home and talking with, for example, an elderly grandmother living alone, talking of things that would lift our hearts or bring us to tears. Occasionally someone would mention a recently deceased family member, claim that they had some dream about my coming, or simply said they felt I had been sent by God. Although there were always a few people who wanted to belittle me, or disabuse me of my brainwashed state and ludicrous beliefs, many people wanted to share their hearts. These fundraising experiences afforded me opportunities to better understand myself, the spirit world and God. It was a "formula course" for accelerated personal growth.

A very memorable few days was fundraising our way from town to town along the Rio Grande between Harlingen and El Paso. We would drive fifty or sixty miles to the next town on the map, only to find that it had but five or ten rustic houses or trailers and if we were lucky, a gas station (once or twice we came upon a deserted "ghost town"!) We would "blitz" these small towns as a team -- the workers and families we met, while somewhat puzzled by our sudden appearance and disappearance, invariably embraced us with kindness. One afternoon, we drove several dozen miles off the (mostly vacant) main highway, to bathe in a hot spring along the Rio Grande. Afterward, we pasted our bodies with soft mud from the riverbank before diving into the river itself.

Our team would reconvene for dinner together in the van, a park or a fast-food restaurant. This was a time to share our experiences with each other and receive new guidance and inspiration before going out again in the evening. We would fundraise late into the night, especially on Fridays and Saturdays, mostly in bars and restaurants that were open late. I will never forget the fun I had late one night fundraising car to car in a drive-in movie theater -- how surprised movie-goers were when I came knocking at their car window with my box of monchichis!

Finally we would count our money and close the day in prayer. I remember the time we decided to say "Pledge" (in the middle of the road behind our van) before going to sleep at 2 am one Sunday morning. Two of us fell asleep (totally exhausted) on the road during the three bows -- we went down but didn’t get up! I also recall one very special night on San Padre Island. After singing holy songs together and taking turns praying out loud in a circle on the beach, we carried our sleeping bags out onto an old weather-beaten pier that extended over the rough surf. We slept under a brilliant starry sky to the sound of waves crashing on the rocks below us and the soothing touch of a steady cool breeze. I remember waking up briefly during the night and marveling at my life and feeling the intimate and personal love of God. Looking back it is a wonder that none of us fell off the pier into the ocean during our slumbers. But we lived with the very palpable sense that we were being guided and protected each day by heaven, that we were in the hands of our Heavenly Father.

From 40 Years in America, pp.313-14.

Linda Feher, “It felt like my heart was touching Father’s heart”

It was Christmas Eve, 1980. As a center member in Baltimore, I was preparing to go fundraising with the rest of the team but there was no holiday joy in my heart. The thought of fundraising on such a major holiday seemed cruel and pointless. I remember that the drive to our fundraising area that day was unusually quiet and gloomy. To make matters worse the sky was very dark gray and it was definitely going to rain!

The team leader and I were the last ones to get out of the van. I knew he was struggling also. I could see him across the street, methodically going from door to door. He looked as lonely and small as I felt. I couldn’t understand why we were doing this.

No one was buying anything. Every time I looked over to where he was I got angrier. Why did we have to do this on Christmas Eve? Seeing the warm yellow glow inside each house made me homesick. When someone answered their door and I could see inside where the families were all enjoying the holiday together, my heart felt as though it would break from loneliness.

We weren’t out very long before it started to rain. I wasn’t wearing a raincoat. I didn’t have an umbrella, so it didn’t take long for me to get completely wet, even through my coat and down to my underwear. I looked over at Tony. I was sure the rain would call a halt to this craziness, but he just kept going. The rain turned to freezing rain and ice began to cover everything. The trees, grass and sidewalks were soon covered with sheets of ice. So we had to walk on the grass to keep from falling down. My hair was frozen and my eyebrows were covered with ice. I had goosebumps on top of goose bumps! I could hardly move my mouth to speak. I was soooooo negative that I cried in between each house. My face was raw from the freezing rain so the tears burned on their way down only to freeze on my chin. What a mess! When the mothers answered their doors, all I could get out of my mouth was "h, I fnra fr m chch."

They would look at me in horror and slam the door without saying a word. (Maybe it was the blue lips!) I remember thinking to myself, "It’s Christmas Eve and you don’t even know who I am or why I’m here. Can’t you see that I’m suffering! Don’t you care?" I couldn’t bear the rejection; it hurt more then being cold.

With each passing minute I got angrier and more frustrated. Why are we out here on this holiday? The people don’t want us here! They think we’re out of our minds, and we are! I thought for sure Tony would be coming across the street to tell me it was time to go home, but when I glanced across the street I could no longer see him. This was too much. My teeth were chattering uncontrollably, I was freezing to my bones and hurting real bad. All that was more bearable to me then the negative feelings in my heart.

As I stood there on someone’s frozen grass, I shook my fist at the sky and screamed at God, "Why am I here, God? What purpose does all this have? You tell me what value this has in the scheme of eternity!" Suddenly I went into a trance-like state and had a vision. I was looking at Father Moon when he was a young man in a North Korean prison. He was standing outside with the other prisoners; they were lined up and the guards were shouting at them. It was very cold; you could see their breath freezing as it came out of their mouths. The sound of the prisoners’ chattering teeth sounded like thunder.


As I observed this scene I became acutely aware of Father’s suffering and I began to cry. Suddenly my own suffering paled and at the same time became infinitely precious because it connected me to Father in a very deep way. As that realization took root in my mind and heart, I felt a touch on the top of my head. It was warm and soothing. It started at the top of my head and made me warm all the way down to my toes. My clothes were still cold and wet but I was comfortably warm. I felt wrapped up in God’s embrace. It felt like my heart was touching Father’s heart. It was intoxicating!

Will Couweleers, “There was a bank robbery and she was kidnapped as a hostage”

It was 12 or 1 in the morning at the holy ground in Phoenix. After our group prayer I told everyone to go off and have individual prayer and that I would sing "Tong Il" in about five minutes. There was a pond with some ducks there. Everyone went off to find a place to pray. Then all of a sudden, there was a big splash. One sister fell asleep praying and fell in the pond!

Later while we were fundraising with her she ended up in the wrong place at the wrong time. There was a bank robbery and she was kidnapped as a hostage. She was a riot, a British sister with a kind of Liverpoolian accent. She was talking so much to the robbers that she was driving them crazy and they finally dropped her off in the middle of nowhere.

From 40 Years in America, p. 242.

Robert Beebe, “An Angel from Heaven”

It was the last day of the month, and the last day of the third month of my attempt to make a $120 average in order to qualify for a "green pin." I was on a fundraising team somewhere in either Indiana or Kentucky circa 1980.

I fundraised all the bars. No result. Not one sale. Then, I came to the last bar with ten minutes to go to pick-up time. I stood outside and looked in through the window. It was a dark and dingy place. There didn’t appear to be so many people inside. Trying to keep faith, I drew a deep breath and opened the door.

Inside were just the bartender and several people at the bar -- one man who looked to be about sixty with white hair and dressed in a three-piece suit, and three ladies all dressed in evening gowns and expensive jewelry. Strange. As soon as I stepped inside, the man looked over at me and called me over: "Come on over here. Let me see what you’ve got."

I walked over and rather sheepishly opened my box of cheap jewelry, waiting to be laughed out of the tavern. Instead, the three ladies were suddenly all "ooing" and "aahing" over my box and wanting to try on necklaces, earrings, bracelets, rings, everything. "Okay, girls," the man said, "Pick out whatever you like and I’ll buy it for you." When they finally settled on what they wanted and the bill was totaled, it came out to be exactly what I needed to make my goal. Somewhat stunned, I thanked them profusely and closed up my box. I was on my way out when I suddenly stopped and came back. There was a question I just had to ask this peculiar man.

"Uh, excuse me," I said curiously, looking over his three-piece suit. "You don’t look like the kind of person who usually comes to this kind of place. If you don’t mind my asking, where are you from anyway?"

The man looked around at me and said, with a twinkle in his eye, "Maybe I’m an angel from heaven." To this day I am convinced that God’s help came to me that day in the form of an angel so that I could gain that green pin. It was the only pin I would ever be awarded in my three and a half years on MFT.

From 40 Years in America, p. 244.

Michael Balcomb, “The work of the Lord is always welcome”

It was a blistering hot summer in 1977, and I was on a struggling MFT team out in the remote reaches of Western Nebraska. Everything was going wrong. Our team leader was injured. Our van broke down regularly and needed parts from out of state. We snapped at each other and complained of the heat, day after day. But even more torrid than the weather was the hostile reception we received in those isolated Western towns. Time and again we would be told by the police "No soliciting here!"

Often we would arrive at the next town to find the police or sheriff waiting at the city limits, happy to run us right out of town.

Armed with faith in our constitutional rights, we would sometimes try fundraising anyway, for a few minutes or a few hours until the inevitable police intervention and usual arrest. Scotts Bluff, Hastings, Broken Arrow...I still remember those jailhouses today, 25 years later.

Finally, there were just two of us left driving round in a huge old Chevy Caprice we had rented. One morning, after having already been stopped by the police by 10 in the morning, my team leader Ted said, "This is hopeless. Let’s leave this state!" Trouble was, the only nearby town was Martin, South Dakota, and that was three hours away, too far to drive and risk failure.

So we called up the City Attorney’s office and told him who we were, what we were doing, raising funds for our church, and how we could find no place to lay our heads in Nebraska. We could hardly believe our ears when he replied, "Boys, you come right on down. The work of the Lord is always welcome in Martin!"

So we drove on across the endless prairie, the old Chevy wagon swaying like a boat as we sped down the country highways, arriving in mid-afternoon at Martin.

An Indian reservation stood on the outskirts, so we started there. From the beginning it was great. We worked through it quickly, then went through the business district, the residential areas, until about 9 pm the only place left was the City Hall and the Police Station. "Why not?," we thought, "if the Lord is really welcome?" So we went in, feeling ridiculously like Daniel in the lion’s den. But the spirit of the Lord was there too, and we finished in high style.

In that half-day, we probably made more money than we had in the past week. It wasn’t the external results that I remember, of course, but the warm-hearted welcome of one pure town that stood out after so many days of despair. I still shed a tear to think of those people, and the words of that righteous city attorney still echo in my mind down the years, "The Lord is always welcome."

From 40 Years in America, pp. 320-21.

Larry Moffitt and Scott Avery, “Hey, let’s sell snow”

One bleak night in Denver we ran out of carnations with an hour to go before Frank Grow was to pick us up. We were in Sunburst, the band, and, as usual, we were fundraising. One of us said, "Hey, I know, let’s sell snow. We have plenty of that."

It had snowed about four feet and the drifts were chest-high everywhere. So we filled up our buckets and went door-to-door selling "the white stuff." Definitely no danger of running out of product.

I’ll never forget the sight of Scott dredging up a big gob of snow for a woman who agreed to buy a dollar’s worth. He studied the pile carefully, considered the size and weight, the cost-per-unit, overhead -- and then he scraped about a third of it back into the bucket!!

I thought I was going to die from laughter. Then, Scott handed it to the woman and she said, "Oh...just put it in the yard." We ended up selling quite a bit of snow. I only remember one person who was irritated by it.

From 40 Years in America, p. 242.

Mark Anderson, “I could feel the presence of heaven”

One time on MFT our team had come up five dollars short of our goal for a 40-day condition. As the captain, I decided to go out and make the last five dollars to achieve the goal. It was 4 a.m. and no businesses were open, but I got out of the van confident I could sell two more boxes of candy. I found an open manhole and heard some clinking sounds under the street beneath a hospital. A man was working on the pipes. I surprised him and he bought two boxes. As I climbed up out of the manhole and headed back to the van where everyone was already sleeping, I could feel the presence of heaven.

From 40 Years in America, p. 246.